my parents and char came down for a visit over thanksgiving. they left yesterday. i am sad today, but grateful to be sad. at least i really love my family and they are a huge part of my life. it would be even more sad if i didn't care when or if i saw them. so, i am very happy about that. we had a wonderful time. pictures will come later. this one, though, is of my adorable boy saying farewell to his tt, papa and auntie. he waved "buh bye" to the plane as it flew away. he doesn't understand that they won't be coming back today, that it'll be awhile. but, perhaps there's a lesson in that. what is time anyway? shouldn't we just be as present as possible, like our little ones, and be happy with what is? i swear my child is always teaching me lessons. he allows things, events, people to come and go and rides the waves as gracefully as anyone i've seen. well, except for when that separation anxiety kicks in, which has been a new thing the past while. he's pretty attached to his parents at the moment. there is a part of me that thinks it's sweet and i feel honored to be the person who represents security in his life (along with his dad). but, the other part of me thinks it's a little heartwrenching. to hear the cries of my boy as i drive away to work is hard, to say the least. i know this will pass.
i guess we always have separation anxiety in some form. i felt like crying out loud yesterday as my family flew away. i kept it in though. i know that i will see them soon. i hold on to the fact that nothing is more important than family. each day that passes i realize this more and more. my little family here in belize is my life line... and that extends far away from here... all the way to salt lake city and all the places in between containing all my other family and friends. as cheesy as it sounds, it's true.
i say a silent prayer to those who are away from their families. we are all connected through space and time through our hearts...
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